The Adventures of the Blind/Low Vision/Visually Impaired (BLOVI) Girl-Volume 47: Things that Scare Me
In honor of Halloween, I have decided to talk about the things that terrify, scare or otherwise freak me out. Interestingly the list is not that long. But First……………….
My WTF of the week is the fact that when I went to pick up my blind person of the year award it was a certificate in a frame so I could not read most of it. What I could read was that the name on this award was wrong. The award was for Lisa Medlock. So I said, it looks great, but that is not my name. I know I should be grateful and not complain at all. But the fact is that my case manager who also won an award for me being the most awesome blind person, did not even realize my name was not Lisa. So, they were apologetic and are going to fix the name. I still cannot read most of what the certificate says without my magnifier glasses. It is baffling they give the blind a visual award. Rather strange to me.
This week I cannot get enough of me and my daughter’s Halloween costumes. We debuted these costumes at Boo at the Zoo a few days ago (see picture). Sadie picked out these costumes and did a fabulous job. She is Super Girl and I am Wonder Woman. Sadie looked totally cute as usual and was very excited that, according to her, the Super Girl costume could actually make you fly. I rocked the Wonder Woman costume with confidence and I really think the Lynda Carter wig completed the look. I managed to come up with a way to even fill out the top of the costume. My boyfriend, who did careful research on Wonder Woman and seems to have an uncanny memory of her costume, reminded me that she actually wore boy shorts that were padded in the back to increase the junk in the trunk. All the Wonder Woman costumes had a skirt, but I would have worn the boy shorts (although no padding would be needed). My daughter asked me what Wonder Woman talked like, but I could not remember because there did not seem to be much dialogue involved. There was just a lot of running. A friend and I decided this was a definite precursor to Baywatch. Here is the reaction at the zoo—Wow, there is Wonder Woman and Super Girl. Since I can’t tell if people are looking at me, especially at bight I checked in with my friend who said, “You are getting some looks from the middle aged men and teenage girls”. And I was the only mommy dressed up as Wonder Woman. I think Halloween is a perfect time to dress up in totally inappropriate costumes and as long as you are wearing a wig you cannot be identified. I still need to obtain the lasso of truth and obedience I can use that on Halloween night to score lots of candy. My line will be-unhand that chocolate.
So, I admit to having some strange fears. Some of these have always been there and others have developed over time. The list is in no particular order.
1) Clowns- There is something totally unnatural about clowns. I think my fear of them was heightened by that scène is Poltergeist where that clown doll tries to drag the boy under the bed. Man that was terrifying.
2) Snakes- I don’t like their skin or the fact they slither. I am so horrified by them I can’t even look at them on TV. One tine when I was lying out in my backyard as a teen, one slithered over my legs and I jumped up and tried to run back in the house so fast that I forgot to open the sliding glass door and banged into it. I never went in the backyard again.
3) Porcelain dolls-The way they stare at you and the whiteness of their faces makes them seem preternatural. They also are supposed to look like children but have these adult like faces. That Chucky doll movie did me in-a doll with an evil look killing people-it’s just too much.
4) Throwing up- I have a tremendous aversion to vomiting and will do anything and everything not to throw up, even though I know it will make me feel better. I will force down crackers and ginger ale and Pepto so I don’t get sick. If I do end up throwing up I start crying like a baby because it is so aversive to me.
5) Rides that spin in a circle- The teacup rides are rides of horror. Anything that spins me around in a circle makes me horribly sick. I can’t even walk when I get off the ride. I can do roller coasters, drop zones and even would bungee, but the teacup ride scares the heck out of me.
6) Any movie that has to do with being possessed by the Devil- This could be a Catholic girl thing, but I have never been able to watch more than 20 minutes of the Exorcist without losing it. Even the music freaks me out. And The Omen was terrifying, as was Rosemary’s Baby. I had nightmares for weeks after that one. There is something about evil or the devil possessing someone that I just can’t handle.
Of course I have normal fears too, like something happening to my child or someone I love or my house burning down with all my stuff in it or drowning. But there are lots of things I don’t really fear or think about, like death or getting sick or having no money. For some reason, those things don’t really bother me. I am thankful that I don’t have fears that hold me back, like a fear or failing or making mistakes or looking stupid. I have done those things plenty of times.
Keep Moving Forward,
Beth (BLOVI) Medlock
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